Under the weather

Im not feeling well

The first time after he left

Feel lonely and empty

No one to turn too

Feel even sick!

A month has passed

Exactly a month,

he left..

My condition? 

Still under constructions...

Slowly.

There are times, I'm ok

There are times, I'm not

But surely, I'll be ok

I just need time

I can take as much time I need

No rush

Still, the love is still there

:'(

Uneasy feeling

I dont feel good. I feel a lot more of dizzines nowadays. It easily come and go. Especially when I'm searching for position to lying down. I try not to eat the medicine prescribed by Dr. Chee. He said  I can a tablet or two if I don't feel good. But, I'm trying my best not to rely on meds. The next check-up will be in May. It's only January. Should I go back and see him in near time? I'm not sure if this temporary as I'm getting more active than before. What should I do now?

Let it go

I just want to sleep all day long

To see and hold you in my dreams

The feelings is still the same

Deep down Im hoping that you'll turn around 

And say, lets go jalan-jalan

Me and you

Around the world

See things that havent seen

Experience all we can

Just the two of us

Thats only a dream, my dream

And I still hold to that hope.

So hard in letting you go

Caused youre the best thing ever happened in mylife 

Apart from my family

I isolated myself from the world

Mourning on the missing us

Days filled with moments we had

Not a day I feel regret 

People say, let him go, if he ever comeback, he's yours, 

If not, its never meant to be

My say, Im letting you go caused I love you, to the moon and back

You just going to that asteroid path, make a one big round 

With obstacles and all that

Later, you'll return to the round starting point

To the path where we initially had

See, how hard to let you?

Be safe and God bless in your journey

Tabahlah hati

2015?

Dah masuk dua hari, 2015.

Tahun baru. Semangat pun kena baru jugak la kan.

Semangat aku berterbangan kemana-mana.

Belum bertemu jalan pulang.

Malam tadi mimpi. Apakah? 

Nak kata teringat sangat, macam biasa-biasa je on the day.

Ni first time mimpi. After almost two weeks.

Nyata, hati aku masih rapuh, masih belum utuh.

Ruang kosong tu, masih lopong. Masih lapang.

Masih merah, membengkak.

Aku doa luka tu sembuh cepat.

Biarlah kosong macamtu.

Sapa suka sendirian?

Kalau itu takdir aku, siapa aku nak lawan takdir kan?

Untuk tahun baru ni, aku cuma nak happy. Nak sama-sama orang yang aku sayang.

Tak, tak, material tu semua tak penting. Cukup dah apa yang aku ada.

Malah terlebih-lebih pulak rasa.

Kita kena bersyukur, sentiasa.

Dan semua itu bukan milik kita.

Bila-bila masa Dia boleh ambik balik.